I saw a great saying a while back that reads something like this: "never make someone your priority that is making you [his or her] option." That saying has helps re-enforce what I have been thinking all along.

Perhaps I am putting too much time and energy into people that really don't care as much about me as I would like to think they do. I realize now that I no longer want to expend emotional energy where it would be wasted.

I also am not willing to put more emotionally into a relationship than someone is willing to put ...<< MORE >>

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I won't expect much from him (meaning a man). I don't care how much that person may profess how much he loves me, wants to marry me, and so on. I am not going to expect much from him. I believe love is in both words and actions.

If a man says he loves you he better best be able to prove it. (Believe me it would be hard to be with a person who doesn't know if he loves me and cannot tell me he does. However, it is just as hard for a man to tell me he ...<< MORE >>

I am never going to bail him out. Not ever again. I may offer to pay for a dinner or purchase food for an evening out. I may even pay for admission for an event his daughter wants to go to.

However, I am no longer going to bail him out financially. I cannot believe this past summer I had not seen him in awhile, and I don't mind helping him even if he were to decide he didn't want to be with me.

I would never turn someone away that needs help. However, the problem is I still had ...<< MORE >>

I am never going to give up any of my holiday family time for ambivalence-a man who may or may not want to be with me. I have been through too much hurt over the years while feeling guilty that I want to have a man involved in my life who wants to be in my life. Who do people think they are anyway?

I mean, just recently I was thinking about getting back together with an old boyfriend, but hesitated because it seems to be the same old crap. He seems to want to drag me into his problems ...<< MORE >>

I no longer am going to feel guilty about who I am. If a guy wants to be with me and can accept me for who I am great, if not that is his loss. Also, I am no longer going to feel guilty about wanting to have a man who wants to take an interest in my life, my family, and the things that are important to me. I also am no longer going to feel guilty about having wants, needs, and desires. I take my time to appreciate what is important to my mate so they should do ...<< MORE >>

I did actually start this blog as a means of venting. I figured it would be
more worth my time than nagging my latest "beau" or whatever it is he likes
to think he is. I am just truly hoping that bitterness pays as much as adult
content would.

If so, it would help return what is due to me after the years of emotional
turmoil I have suffered in relationships. I am not saying I am not without
fault, which I know I am not. But that can be saved for some guy who wants
to create a "Dump that B*tch" blog.

For now I am talking about jerks and the hurt that they have inflicted on me
emotionally. I truly hope this is entertaining to people and that they will
continue to come back for more. Note: I dont' intend to stay bitter at
anyone for longer than it takes to make money off of it. [?]

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I minimize you like a computer screen.

 

You are still there and I can pull you up

when I feel the need.

 

You may think this is downright insensitive

and cold, but then again computer screens

don't have feelings.

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